Half Mil

Half Mil 

Dear Guy from NY who took me out to Dinner when I was Twenty :

You think your Half Mil makes you Special but it doesn’t

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

You gotta be a Girl’s Friend before you bang her

You think just cause

you paid for Dinnah

gives you the Right

to take what evah?

You think just cause

you dropped a Hundred Dollahs

gives you the Right

to shove your Tongue down my Throat when it’s ovah?

I ain’t a Fucking Prostitute

If I was, then I’d tell yah

Ye think your Half Mil makes you Special but it doesn’t

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

You gotta be a Girl’s Friend be fore you bang her

Now I’m a Truth Teller

a Real Straight Talkah

that’s why you keep on messagin

questionin

" What’s up with these Bitches, Jesus?

All a Bunch of Fucking Teases

Here I got a Good Job

a Real Shwank Pad

but Honey, I'm hurtin

why won’t they give me what I’m wantin? "

You think your Half Mil makes you Special but it doesn’t

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

You gotta be a Girl’s Friend before you bang her

You think you so Fine

with the Wine

on your Dime 

in your Prime

it’s a Crime

Girls won’t give you the Time

but you just as Much a Jerk

as my Guy
All Night
you been slanderin

Stead of wonderin

if it’s you that paid

why ain’t you gettin laid?

ask your Self

what if this Chick was your Sistah, Mistah?

You get my Gist?

You a Fucking Misogynist

You think my Ass is your Due but it’s not

You think my Ass is your Due but it’s not

You think your Half Mil makes you Special but it doesn’t

It’s in-Securities that you’re coverin with your Bluster, Buster

so work on your Personality

Stead of talkin bout your Gs

You think your Half Mil makes you Special but it doesn’t

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

It ain’t your Money, Buddy

You gotta be a Girl’s Friend before you bang her

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Cook'd St House / Vic. City / BC / Coast Salish / CA / TiL

LLWAM

Probably what I thought “the OC” was like before I saw an Episode

I had this Creepy Dream

Last Night

about an Abandoned Mansion

on a Rock
on the Coast

of California

My Sister drove by
along the Winding Road

wearing a Tight Red Dress

in a Convertible

that was also Red

There was a Young Man
in the Mansion

He’d come to stay there

after an Accident

My Sister thought the Young Man was Attractive

He was Blonde

The Young Man slept on a Marble isLand

in the Middle of an Empty Room

with Cold White Floors

and a Pool

He was taking Pills

He took so Many Pills

a Ring of Chalk formed around his Lips

My Sister and her Friend
they stole Some of his Pills
and then the Young Man awoke

The Young Man said he was in a Car Accident

because he'd partied too Much

My Sister's Friend left

The Young Man’s Mother came

into the Room

She had Red Hair

She seemed Very Frail

but she had an Evil Plan

His Mother told the Young Man to go to the Party

at the Lake

with my Sister

My Sister was Xcited

( she thought the Young Man was Attractive ) 

then my Sister left the Mansion

and his Mother told the Young Man

about

an Old Friend

At his Mother's Urging, the Young Man
went to visit him

The Old Friend was a Priest

He took the Young Man to a Hospital

to see a disFigured Boy

The Boy had an Other Boy

growing out of his Back

The Priest brought the disFigured Boy out to show the Young Man

The disFigured Boy made Terrifying Faces
He might have eaten the Young Man

He might have been a Demon

The Young Man rode back to the Abandoned Mansion

in the Back Seat of a Limo

with the Priest

and they discussed

killing
the disFigured Boy

-((%%))- How to use Sx Majik to predict the Future -((%%))-

Want to know More about your Future?

Looking for inSights into a Situation you are Currently facing?

Have Sx!

I know, Right?

The Following Sx Majik ( inTentional Sx ) Practices can be performed Either aLone or with a Partner.

Passive interPretation : the Imagery of Sx Majik

Because Sx Majik is a Deeply Individual Process, I am going to describe my Xperiences in the First Person, that their Subjectivity should be understood.

While masturbating or during Sx with a Partner, I close my Eyes. As I become aroused, I begin to notice Shapes and Patterns flit across my Filed of Vision, Similar to what happens when I close my Eyes and I can see Silhouettes or Lights that have left their imPressions on my Retinas.

I believe that during Sx Majik Practices, the subConscious releases Images to the Conscious Mind like a Movie Reel is projected onto a Screen.These Split Second Images, Often made of Shadow and Light, are what I use to predict my Future. Predicting my Future happens to be my Particular Talent. I imagine these Images can be used for Divination of All Kinds.

Even though these Images Only last a Moment, if I retain a Clear Mind, as in Meditation, while having Sx with mySelf or with a Partner, and do not attempt to judge the Images, Simply to observe them as they come, it becomes Evident what they represent. I rely on my inSitincts. If I feel that what I saw was a Horse, it was a Horse. I try not to look too Deeply into the Images, because when I do, they are obscured or disappear. If I allow the Images to appear and disappear as they will, however, they make their Identity Obvious with Time.

When I get the Meaning, or Identity, of the Image Right ( “that was a Horse” ) I feel Sxual Satisfaction. If I am Wrong about what the Images represents ( “that was a Horse” and it was Really a Wolf ) I xperience a decrease in Arousal. It is as if the Images are rewarding me when I Correctly divine their Nature, which makes Sense on an inTuitive Level.

Most Often, during Sx Majik Practices, I see Animals, People, and Shapes Such as Stars, Hearts, Swirls, Anchors, Leafs, etc. This is not to say that you will see these Things during Sx Magik, but that these Sorts of Images are within the Range of Possible to see during Sx Majik. I believe that because it is Imagery from the subConscious, Sx Majik Imagery is Similar to the Images in Dreams / on Tarot Cards. The Images are Symbolic in Nature, Often on More Levels than One at Once, and Each means a Different Thing to the Individual perceiving it. Each Image is created by the Mind to mean a Particular Thing to the Mind. As of Such, the Objectivity of these Images is Often in Question.

If a Particular Image appears again and again in my Sx Majik Practices, I take this Image as Significant. If I ask my Self  “what is the Meaning of this Image?” and my Mind provides Only Vague Conjectures, I refrain from making Conclusions as to the Meaning of the Image. I trust that its Meaning will appear in Time, but it is Okay to guess and be Wrong. It is also Helpful, if a Particular Image has no Special Significance to me, despite its appearing over and over again during Times of Arousal, to search through Symbolic Meanings of that Particular Image on the InterNet or in Books. Often, the Symbolic Meaning an Image has carried through Time will prove Accurate as to its Meaning. I think this is because the Images originate in what we call, the “Collective unConscious.” 

The Way I know when I have found the Right Meaning for an Image I see during Sx Majik, while performing Sx Majik, is I xperience a Deep Feeling of Sxual Satisfaction, Often resulting in Orgasm. An inCorrect Meaning will leave a Hallow Feeling that is a Turn off. This inCrease / deCrease in Arousal motivates me to find the Correct Meaning for the Images. Finding the Meaning of an Image seen during Sx Majik during Sx Magik, I've noticed, is Best done not by searching the Mind but by clearing the Mind. In releasing the Conscious, Judgmental, Mind, the unConscious Image will be projected More Clearly.

The Information I receive through Sx Majik tends to make itsSelf Obvious. It wants to be known. This makes Sx Majik ClairVoyance Fast and Effective.

  

Active interPretation : how to ask the Universe a Question and get an Answer

Once you have learned how to use Sx Majik Imagery ( which is to say, Once you have learned which Sorts of Images represent what and how they can be used to convey a Message, which is learned by receiving and interpreting Passive Sx Majick Imagery ) it Easy to ask Questions using Sx Magik ( feeding Messages into the Void to receive Confirmation ).

The Best Way to do this, I have found, is not to Work from the Question you have, but to hypothesize Answers to the Question and then to test those Answers with Sx Majik.

This can done by composing, in the Mind, Images that represent an Answer to a Question and bringing these Images to Mind during Sx to see what happens. I also SomeTimes phrase the Answer in Words, stating the Phrase in my Mind during Sx to see what happens. If I xperience Feelings of Deep Joy or Satisfaction upon the Thought, or if I achieve Orgasm with the Help of the Thought, I take it as True. If I feel a deCrease in Arousal when I bring the Thought to mind, it is a False Thought. This Practice is Consistent with the Meta Physical Truth “All the Answers lie within,” or, as I like to put it, “We are what we want.”

This ( Very Short ) Description of the Process by which Sx Majik is used to divine Truth is Vague, but that is in keeping with the Nature of Sx Majik and of Psy Prophesy More Generally. EveryOne will have their Own Way of invoking and interpreting the Information that is brought to them by the subConscious during Sx Majik or Other Meditative Practices. The Information provided here is intended to help get you started in xploring the ClairVoyant Aspects of Sx by bringing your Attention to its Xistence, and to the Significance of Imagery and Pleasure to these Practices. I believe it is to Each Person Individually to find the Best Way for them to use Sx Magik as a Form of Divination.

Andrea

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