There are Layers to the iniTiation

1.

There are Layers to the iniTiation, but the Boy is alReady a Man. Careful, or you’ll break it. I am Constantly looking for my Self. A Quartz reflecting. You have come here to repent. I mean that in the Holistic Sense. These Demons are Really People, and they are smiling. I am listening, trying to learn Some Thing. What? Riches? I can see my Self in these People. They are Skins I have shed and Skins I am growing into. I stare at those I want to stare back. It is as if I am living a Story that is being told over and over.

2.

What am I looking for? Some Kernel of Truth? This Idyllic Weeping. I keep thinking MURDER. I keep thinking I have to kill Some One. Or, not that I will kill a Girl, but the Universe is going to kill her in Order for me to live. It’s as True as it isn’t. I have watched Talents be destroyed by Money, or the Promise of it.

3.

What happens to bring your Lover here?

I don’t know. I must do Some Thing to impress him.

What could that be?

I don’t know. Will it be Some Thing I do, or will it be Some Thing he realizes on his Own? Have I done All I can?

You don’t believe that.

You’re Right. I don’t. 

There’s aLways Some Thing you can do.

4.

What can I say? We are lavishing Attention on Sociopaths. I’m Jealous, I know. My Jealousy is im’Patience. Out Side, the Sea crashes on the Shore. There are More Stones on the Shore than I can count. I am surrounded by Beauty and Hope. I spend my Days staring into a Computer Screen. Spirits come to me. Some of us have un Usual Minds. Tires burning in a Lot. Is that the Smell of Fear? Solace.

5.

My X-Boy Friend was in my Dream Last Night.

Which One?

Ha. We made out. The Walls were Wood.
What if this was a Video? What do you think?

That we’re surrounded by Brain Washing. 

6.

Maybe we need these Trailer Parks. Here, waltz with me. On the Other Side.