17.1.11

The Queen





I can feel my Self
growing
Colder

My Loyalty
is a
Farce

It takes Reciprocation
where it can get it

In Soldiers of the Revolution

Men Bound by Attraction

and Rules them with a Hand
that Treats this
as its Solitary
Consolation



Whore
Yes

Whore
Yes

Yes Yes Yes Yes
Whore
Yes
Whore



You are no Thing but a Whore

A Terrible Terrible
Whore

Whose Ditch are you Suited for

Little Whore


Who thought she was a Queen?




I sent my Life to Literature and




I sent my Life to Literature and
waited the Hours until it replied

who believes the inStincts?

Me

Me

The Instincts are Queen

I

I

The Instincts Never lie

I sent out my Request
I let my Dreams fly

Now here I stand
Crazy me

who tested the World and now will see
just who Xactly
she's going to be



Guarantee





In the End
there is no Thing
that can be said

Ever trying to be
ratified
we build our Selves a Body
of Xternals

the Centre

Empty


I am Aware
of the Cruelty
of Passions
that say

"This is the Only Way"

without Guarantee

I have wished to know as Much
as I think I know

I am not in the Mood
to die
or to decay

I am not in the Mood to go away

My Senses are pointing to my Success

but until there's Guarantee

until there's Guarantee

I'll be slipping away like the Xternals, Poor me

Without Possessions
we are More aware of the Body

that it too will be blown
to the Past

without Guarantee

that's me

without Guarantee

that's me



Oh fuck it

We'll see

I'll throw my Self

Beautiful

Nasty

Dangerous

Longing

Violent

Lovely

Fucking

a Million

Key Boars

Fucking

a Billions

Neurons

Fucking

a Trillion

SunRises

I'm my Own Guarantee

I'm a Darling
with her Face
the Country


I am writing my Story





Said the Scorpion





I’m scared
of
how Much

Attention

I need


Scared I’ll

destroy


my Self

if I don't get
it



Shit


I am revealing Weakness



This Very Attempt

to preserve my Self

could be my

Undoing



How Frightening


Yes Terribly Frightening



Which would be
Better
for me?
hey?
Silly?



Should I

believe Society



or
should I

toss out

the Conceit

for a

Downgraded Xperience

in an

Under Valued World?






It is my Nature
after All





In that I am Triumphant







3.1.11

Andrea Coates is profiled by the Victoria Writers' Society!



I edited this from the Original Interview, because, 2 Weeks Later, None of it was True Any More.

The Questions were still Good though.


http://victoriawriters.ca/

How long have you been writing for? Since when? I’ve been writing since I was 5 Yrs Old. My First was a Story about Flying Horses. I orated it to my Mom and she wrote it down. Then I drew Pictures to go along with it. At 12 I wrote my First Novel. It was about Girls with Magical Powers, and is condensed into a Poem here. I drew Pictures for that too. Girls in Cool Dresses.

Describe what writing means to you. Is it something you can’t live without
doing, or is it just a hobby for you?
Definitely SomeThing I can’t live without. Definitely dominates my Identity. When I can't write, I begin to go Mad. My Current Ambition is to earn Money. I’m looking for a Publisher for my Novel, SIS:.

What are your goals for your writing? To become Ridiculously inFamous and then run away to the Woods where I start an Anarkist FarmStead and write Tomes of Philosophy on Sx, Drugs and Anarky.

What genres do you write in and why? I write Philosophy, Poetry, Fiction and Essays. Philosophy because it is Sx and Important. Poetry because it’s Good to be able to xpress your Feelings and then be done with them. Fiction because I enjoy reading it and because it is Telepathic. Essays because they make People laugh and they allow me to let my Intellectual Rage out.

What inspires you? Juxtapositions, Trash Culture, Youth Movements, Music, Dense Classical Literature, the InterNet, Politics, Partying, my Friends, Turtle IsLand. Things that make me Angry, Things that make me Happy, Things that make me Envious.

Who are your favourite authors? What are your favourite books? And why? Three of my Favorite Authors are Roberto Bolaño, Fredrick Nietzsche and Allen Ginsberg. I like Authors who are Crazy Geniuses and Authors who take Art to the Level of living. I like Authors who change the World. My Favorite Books are On the Road by Jack Kerouac, because it was the Book that helped me realize I could be more than a Party Girl, I could be a Great Writer; Antwerp by Roberto Bolaño, because it captures the Essence of Good Writing (make the Words conjure a Picture); and The Genealogy of Morals by Nietzsche, because I would like to be Able to xpand People’s Minds to that Degree. I like Books that define Eras or Movements, like Henry Miller’s Tropic of Cancer or Simone de Beauvoir’s The Second Sex. My Self Education is in Canonical Literature and Philosophy. That's where my Sensibilities come from: I'm the Snob of All Snobs.

What are you reading right now? (comments on the work?) I am reading A History of Sexuality, Volume I by Michel Foucault, The Second Sex by Simone de Beauvoire, The Ethical Slut: A Practical Guide to Polyamory, Open Relationships and Other Adventures by Dossie Easton and Janet W. Hardy and Jane Sexes It Up, edited by Merri Lisa Johnson because I would like to write a Philosophical Book on Gender and Sxuality. I am also reading Nietzsche’s The Anti-Christ, Jean Paul Sartre’s Being and Nothingness, an Anthology of Canadian Poetry from the Seventies, and Joseph Boyden’s Through Black Spruce. I like to read Many Books at Once, Little Bits at a Time. Especially Philosophy, because it is the Literary Equivalent of Weight Training.

How do you gather material for your writing? Do you eavesdrop on
strangers, look through old diaries, research in the library, jot down notes from
your day to day life?
First I live in Life, then I write down from Xperience: I am an Autobiographical Writer, but I wont tell you to what Degree.

Have you taken any writing courses that have been particularly helpful/
inspiring for you? If so, describe them.
This is a Contentious Topic for me. I don’t like School. It is because I am Both Ego Maniacal and Socially Anxious, the 2 of which are Connected: I am Afraid of being discovered in my Ego. I am thankful for Books and for the InterNet, which have allowed me to educate mySelf.

What does the Victoria Writers’ Society do for you? Do you belong to a
critique group, do you enjoy going to the meetings, the free subscription to Island
Writer?
I like knowing what's going on. That Way, if I choose to leave my Bubble, I may.

Any further comments you’d like to make about your writing, inspirations,
writing in Victoria, etc. Please feel free to take up as much space as you like!

Oh Gosh. I've started this Production Company called LotusLand Warrior ArtMedia. It's an Art Bomb. AN ART BOMB. I want to change the World. I want there to be More Plants and Animals. EveryThing I do is for that: the Plants and Animals.