x ()()()() x Andrea steps out of the Closet of the Present x ()()()() x

I’m Three Years behind TV

I download Shows, Seasons at a Time, off the InterWeb

I don’t like Commercials is why



Commercials are One of my Least Favorite Things

Right up there with Rapists and Racists

All Three of my Least Favorite Things - in One!

I do like TV Shows, though, the Good Ones, the Ones that weave together the Lives of Multiple, Realistic Characters, the Ones that are More like Books, as Long as Books but Easier to Digest, Some Thing I can do for Hours at a Time while Hung Over and curled up on the Couch with my Boy Friend.

The Wire is as Good as Any Book.

And, mmm, Felicia "Snoop" Pearson, the Fact you Reallyare a Hood Only makes me want to bang you the More

Recently, I’ve started True Blood, the One with Anna Paquin as Sookie Stackhouse, a Waitress who reads Minds, and dates a Vampire. Yeah. Vampires. The Ultimate Sxual Fantasy for Submissive Ladies.

"I'm Dark, Brooding, Aggressive, and Way Stronger than you. You look Delicious. I'm going to feed on you and you're going to like it."

Holy Fuck, yes I would.





Mythical Creatures abound on True Blood.

I <3 Mythical Creatures.







Characters are alWays being revealed as Mystical Creatures:

they come out to their Friends in the Heat of Louisiana Drama.

I think this is Inspiring





so

in the Spirit

of Telepaths and Vampires and Shape Shifters and so on ...





I’d like to come out

to who Ever reads this

Back Woods Blog






as an



Oracle

 Dude,

I can see the Future

If Anna Paquin could read my Mind, would she see me and my Man and her and Stephen Moyer meet at a Party for Famous Canadians where I'm like, "Hey, Anna, I've been a Fan of yours Ever Since I was Eight and the Only People I related to were Animals and you were in that Movie about Geese. That was Rad. Big up, Sista," and then we get talking and we realize we're Swingers?

My Mother's Name is Sybille H*******r

SYBIL is a Greek Word meaning

ORACULAR SEERESS

From Wikipedia:

“The Sibylline Oracles are a collection of oracular utterances written in Greek hexameters ascribed to the Sibyls, prophetesses who uttered divine revelations in a frenzied state.”

Why do you think I

sound like a Crazy Person?

Dance like a Crazy Person?

and do so Many Drugs?

I am Part of an Ancient Tradition of Majik

Coming out as a Oracle is as Awkward as coming out Gay because the Identity of Oracle has been as repressed by Western Enlightenment Materialism as homoSxuality was by Christian Anti Sx Dogma. But while homoSxuality has, in the Present Day, a Significant Media Presence and a Popular Acceptance in Secular Communities, Oracles, as a True Phenomenon, do not. I hope to change this.

I realized I have Future Oriented Visionary Capacities when I was Eighteen Years Old.

Just before I turned Eighteen, I had my First Visionary Xperience, an " Epiphany "

I occurred while coming down off a Tab of MDMA

The Vision

appeared as a Message

written in Light




It said

I AM A WRITER

It was Totally Shocking and Completely Convincing

I started telling Every One I was a Writer

I began reading Serious Books.




I read Jack Kerouac's On the Road.

This triggered a

"Revelation"





I am a Great Novelist

as Great as Kerouac or his Muse, Dostoyevsky

I began reading Classic Xistentialists

they revealed

I am a Great Philosopher

as Great as Any of the Xistentialists

Following these Xperiences

unCertain of their Veracity ( I was 18 )

I concluded that the Only Way to guarantee

what had been "revealed" to me


was to dedicate my Life

to the Study


of Literature

and Philosophy

My First Vision at occurred at the End of August 2006.





Summers following that

between July and August usually

I xperienced Mild Visionary

"Commands"

that may have come from my Own Mind

or may have come from else where





they told me to






2007- DUMP [BOYFRIEND]






2008- DROP OUT OF UNIVERSITY TO MOVE TO USA








2009- FOLLOW [MAN]

I complied to All Three

Visions are !Very Convincing! The Way they have presented their Selves to me, I am given a Choice : follow the Vision and succeed at what the Vision suggests I will succeed at or deny the Reality of the Vision and go Mad.

Because my Visions offer me Good, I follow them, as Absurd as their Commands may seem from the Perspective of Some One outWardly observing my Choices in Life : it is Better to look Crazy than to feel Crazy.

In March 2010, Age Twenty One, I made Friends with a practicing Shaman who, though Mystical Conversations invoked by Marijuana Mostly and LSD, DMT and Other Hallucinogens Occasionally, eroded my Western “enLightened” Materialist Perspective and introduced me to Magickal and Spiritual Paganism, which allowed me to see my Visions not as some Freak Capacity to be doubted based on the Lack of Acceptance these Skills have in the Modern Scientific / Patriarchal / Technological World, but as a Gift whose Origins lie Deep in the our Story of our Species.

July 2010, Aged Twenty One, I xperienced an Xtended Hallucinatory Vision. Part One occurred while at Work. Part Two occurred at the Same Time the Nxt Day while riding on a Bus. I recorded these Visions in a Note Book as they came to me. This Transcription was turned into the Poem, Fucking telePathy MotherFucker. This Vision Poem has revealed, to me, Countless Layers of Prophecy.

"Guises" are Common in Visions. They Work in a Way Identical to the Way Dreams will substitute One Person or Object for an Other for Symbolic Purposes. "John Collins" was a Tall Caucasian Man I thought I would marry, but I knew the Vision could not be of him Specifically. This allowed me to divine from the Poem that I would meet Some One that I would marry in the Future.

Visions are, in Many Ways, waking Dreams. Like Dreams, they use Pictographic Communication and therefore, reading an Author like Jung can be Very Helpful in interpreting them.

The Often unXpected and All Consuming Quality of Waking Visions makes them Harder to dismiss as the Cognitive Mumbo Jumbo of Dreams ( and, besides, Dreams are no Cognitive Mumbo Jumbo, but a Sophisticated Method of subliminal Communication ). I find that Both my Dreams and my Waking Visions are adept at transmitting inFormation to me about Things that have not yet happened.

This supports the Hypothesis that Time and Space are One, the "passing of Time" an Illusion.

When I look at Stories and Drawings from my Childhood and Adolescence - I began writing Stories and drawing Pictures at Five - I find they are Abundant in Prophetic iMitations of People and Events in my Present.

At Twelve I envisioned and wrote One, Magna DreamCatcher, of a Series of Novels I dreamed up, and condensed, at Twenty, into a Poem called Quebec Myth, that, I believe, maps, in a Metaphorical Way, the Trajectory of my Youth up until the Formation of my Family, which has yet to take Place, but of whose General Nature, Due to this Story and to Numerous Other Visions triggered by Drug and Sx Majik Practices, I am Conscious of.

The Prophetic Descriptions in my Poems are Metaphorical in Nature and require, for inTerpretation, a disconnection of the Mind from its Rational Faculties. This is done Much like in the YA Novel, The Golden Compass, where the Girl Protagonist, Lyra, must disengage her Critical Faculties and empty her Mind in Order to read her Prophetic Instrument, the Alethiometer. Most of my Visions take Place while I am on Drugs or while I am having Sx because both Clear the Mind while Stimulating the Senses, allowing Other Dimensions to be glimpsed, Often as Symbolic Imagery, or Brief Flashes, as if the inFormation filters through Consciousness.

Between Sixteen and Seventeen I invented the Plot and Characters of a Graphic Novel (which have since transformed into Portions of the the Novel We change the World) that has foretold Encounters, in Victoria, BC, with the Some of the Most imPortant People in my Life.

In the Last Six Months, aided by PsychoActive Drugs and Intense Sxual Majik Practices, I have been xperiencing inCreasingly Frequent, Clear and Precise Visions which have shown me Many Future Events in my Life

For Xample,

I believe I know the Names, Identities, Appearances, and Personalities of my Four Children, as Well as the Years of Birth of Three of them and who fathers them

I believe I know I will live in a Place called HRTNRKFRM, an Anarkist Collectivist Farm and Many of the People who are going to live there

I know the Basic Trajectory of my Literary and Media Careers including the Plots of Most of my Major Literary and Media Works. I believe I will be Wealthy as a Result of these Works ( and Careful inVestment ) and that I will ascend, in 2012 - 2013, from unKnown Blogger to Major Canadian Literary and Media Icon. I will maintain this Position for the Rest of my Life and beyond.

I can see the People's Totemic Animal Spirits


 

Ana Paquin

Koala

 as Well as Other Relevant Symbology

As of the OnLine Publication of this Essay, a Small Number of People are aware of my Visionary Capacity, Each with a Differing Degree of Confidence in its Veracity

I have to be as Confident as I can be because the Ulterior Option, as Presented to me by the Visions their Selves, is inSanity

as Far as I xperience it,

Doubting my Visions is inSanity

As a Result of my Visionary Capacities, I believe the Universe is Conscious and communicating with People at All Times. This "Universe Consciousness" may be called God, but I wish to distance my Self from the Christian Conception of "God," which I find Patriarchal and Tryannical. I prefer to call the Universe Consciousness as Such. An Other Good Name is VALIS, for Vast Active Living Intelligence System, or the "Holomovement" - the Seemless Whole of Xistence. I like to personify the Holomovement as a Mycelium, VALIS the Mycelium, who’s Atoms are Eye Balls on the Ends of Invisible Tentacles of Consciousness and who is alWays unfolding as All Reality in and of its Self and goes on forever.

I believe that "Future" Oriented Visionary Capacities are inherited and that, like All Talents, they are given to Some More so than to Others, but that, None the Less, All People have Psychic Skills of Some Kind which they can develop through Acceptance and Practice. A Book I Really enjoyed, which Really helped me come to Terms with my Powers ( and will help Any One develop their Own - according to the Book, Every One is Psychic! ) is Your Sixth Sense : Activating your Psychic Potential, by Belleruth Naparstek. 

One of the Easiest Ways to bring about Future Oriented Visionary Capacities in your Life, as Far as I know, is to pay close Attention to Coincidences ( there is no Such Thing as Coincidences : there are Only Messages), as Well as to the Light / Shadow shapes formed when you Close your Eyes. What do they look like? Like Animals? People? Symbols? Draw what you see, keeping an Open Mind : do not judge what you see : take it as it is. Listen to what your inStincts tell you these Images represent. This is the Basic Principal behind my Sx Majick Practices : what Images do I see upon Orgasm? What Images trigger Orgasm? These are the Truest Images.

I believe the Reason my Particular Psychic Skills are Oracular, ie, Future Oriented, is on Account of my Soul having Properties Similar to the Stone Citrine

Citrine




(as with All Things Vision Related, the Following is an Intuitive rather a than Scientific Xpliantion of Causality)

As I am able to see the Future, I believe All Time xists alReady. I believe the Brain of Sapiens is built to access these Other Realms of Time through Meditative and Ecstatic Practices. Citrine, which I take to be the Crystal emBodiment of my Soul, just as the Cougar

Cougar

is the Animal emBodiment

and the Golden Heart

is the 2 Dimensional Symbolic Embodiment

of my Soul


and the Golden Apple

is the 3 Dimensional Symbolic emBodiment


of my Soul

Citrine, as a Crystal, is Very Colorful, but it is also Quite Clear

If we Imagine Light is the Illusion of Time and Color is Information, we can see that Citrine has a High Ratio of Time passing through it to Information retained by it.

Some One whose Soul is Dark but Transparent, like Amethyst

projects a Good Deal of Color (Information), but does not allow for as Much Light Filtration (Time passing through Consciousness), rather it retains this Light as Color within its Self, creating a Kind of "Brooding." This Means, those whose Souls can be represented by Amethyst are Highly Perceptive, but their means of xpressing this Intelligence will be Largely subConscious and Emotional. They will be talented at Visual Art, Music, or Performance, and in Deed, Amethyst is used to Enhance these subConscious, Creative Skills, but they may not be Great at Articulating what it is that drives them. The Person who's Soul is like Amethyst will tend not to know why, Xactly, they are Xpressing what they are, they will Simply Xpress and be Accurate, and will see the Past, the Dark Realms of Purple, More Clearly than the Bright Realm of the Future.

Some One whose Soul is Opaque like Lapis Lazuli,

will be a Person who lives More so in the Present Moment than those with Clearer Souls, but though they Maybe More Grounded and Talented in Practical Matters, they may be inclined to Anger, Stubbornness, and Opinions based on those that are around them, as their Nature is to bounce Light Off their Selves, Rather than allow it to pass through them.

Some One whose Soul is Totally Clear, like Quartz,

tend to be Very Certain about their Future and their Past, and therefore Good Planners, Good Organizers and Very Driven and Stable, but they Retain Little Information beyond this Momentum and Maybe Overly Straight Forward and Practical. None the Less, Quartz enhances the Power of Other Crystals thought its Ability to channel just about Every Thing. Some One with a Quartz Soul would make a Good PR Rep, Business Person, or Personal Organizer: Some One who help bring the out the Best in Others.

Finally, Clear Yellow, like Citrine, has a Balanced Ability to retain and to pass on Information. For this Reason, it is a Stone for the Thinker. It represents Intellect and Communication. Information passes through it, but unLike the Quartz, which is a Pure Channeler, the Amethyst, which is the Wisdom of Light Retention, and Lapis Lazuli which has it's Own Nature but reflects that which is shone onto it, Information tends to come to and come out of the Person with the Cirtine Soul alMost Xactly as it has been revealed to them, but distorted Slightly by the Imagination (hence I become a Novelist, write Visionary Poems, and my Visions appear with "Guises," or Symbolically, or may be Scrambled at First). So, in Stead of the Quartz which enhances Energy as it alReady is, and the Amethyst which does Things Intuitively without understanding them Consciously, Cirtine receives Information as Conscious Symbolic Images, interprets them, and passes them on to Others as it has interpreted them. I see the Future passing through my Mind in Images that are Either Perfectly Clear or Slightly Symbolically Distorted and I'm Very Apt not Only at describing what it is that I see and what I think that means, but putting a Spin on it that makes it a Good Story.

Citrine's Biggest Flaw? I have a Tendency to blast through People with a Torrent of Intellect, Language and Attitude. My Partner says I need to learn Some "Discretion," Some Thing he, as Black Tourmaline, with no Color at All,

is an Xpert at.

So Far, in my Life

I have received Four Types of Visions:

1) COMMANDS telling me to Perform certain Tasks. These Visions are Strong, Clear and unDeniable. They Most Often appear as Light, or as a Voice accompanied by Light, and Some Times in Words written in Light. These Visions are Often enhanced or triggered by PsychoActive Drugs.

2) Brief Impressions of Future Scenes I will witness. These Visions are Clear and Precise but Fleeting. They are Often enhanced or triggered by PsychoActive Drugs as Well as Sx Practices.

3) Intuitive Impressions, which are Feelings, devoid of Imagery, which allow me to predict the Future Course of Events and are Very Useful for directing the Course of Written Works which then turn out to be Prophetic. Not Especially enhanced by PsychoActive Drugs or Sx Magick Practices, although they can be used to Direct Visionary Xperiences had in Either of these States.

4) Symbolic Representations, as in Dreams, or Split Second Visions of Objects, Colors, Animals, Symbols, etc. These Visions are Often enhanced and triggered by Sx and PsychoActive Drugs.

I see the Future Considerably More Often and Considerably More Clearly than the Past (All though I have had Xperiences I believe were Visions of the Past and these occurred Mostly while reading). I believe this is because Yellow is an Optimistic Color, Reminiscent of the Sun, the New Day, Rather than the Past, which lives in the Darker Realms of Time. I also believe my Connection to the Color Yellow and to Light is the Reason I receive my Clearest, Most Powerful Visions between July and August, when there is the Most Sun where I live.

I believe that PsychoActive Drugs are Essential to the Development of Psychic Abilities, and this is why they have been Vital to All Pagan Ecstatic Religions, as Well as why they are controlled and retained by Power Structures, who would keep them out of the Hands of the Masses. Cigarettes and Caffeine Products are Legal because they assist the Worker in making it through the Work Day. Alcohol is Legal because it allows the Worker to let loose after Work while repressing the Kind of Critical Thinking that would cause the Worker to question their enSlavement. Anti Depressants are Legal because they subdue the Rage and dePression People feel when they are controlled and xplioted. Illegal are All Drugs which elevate Consciousness to Higher Levels where the Person may come into Contact with Divine Truths which would grant them Intellectual and Cultural FreeDom.

In my Xperience, which is to say, Other People may have had Different Xperiences with these Same Substances, but these are mine, the Hard Psychedelics (DMT, LSD, Mescaline, Psiloscybe, Salvia, etc) are Good for realizing Truths about the Larger Structure of the Universe, for Communicating with Spirits, for entering Alternate Planes of Consciousness and for realizing and achieving Major Changes that need to be made.

MDMA is Good for Clarified Visions of the Future and for improving Communication with the Self and Others

Cocaine is Good for Dreams, for Revelations, and for Clarification and for Communication- but beware, it can make People Aggressive, so don't use it for Any Thing too Serious.

Drugs, Sx and Dance (the Frenzies of Ecstasy) are Vital to PsyChick Powers because they allow One to, through Pleasure, disEngage Consciousness from Every Day Material Reality and xperience and communicate with the Mystical Forces that lie just beyond it.

My PsyChick Powers come unSolicited and are concerned, Primarily, with the Lives of my Self and my Family Members. I can see the Futures of my Children Almost as Clearly as I can see my Own Future, which has caused Some Debate among my Friends, who do not wish for me to be disappointed when my Children do not turn out as I predicted. I dismiss their Concerns, as I am convinced, and feel no need to force my Children to be what I alReady know they are. Let them discover it for their Selves. Should they Surprise me, All the Better for them.

I am not Sure that I Even wish for Oracular Abilities that go beyond the Lives of my Self and my Family. That would seem to be opening my Gifts to xploitation.

As illustrated above, Some Visions are Very Clear and Precise, such as the I AM A WRITER Vision, Others are of a Symbolic or Metaphorical Nature, like the Dream Prophecies. The Symbolic and Metaphorical Visions are Great Fun because their Meaning is Rarely Clear from the out Set. This Meaning tends to unfold over Time in an Intricate Process of Reversal and Revelation which Often xpresses a Good Deal of Humor, Danger and Surprise, like a Good TV Show. You don’t Understand what you saw until the Veil is lifted and Events begin to unfold as implied. Often, my Visions will trick me to get me to do Some Thing that then leads me to the True Revelation, as if I am going on a Treasure Hunt.

Many of the Ways of Prophesy are contained in WitchCraft, NewAge, Shamanic and Pagan Spirituality. 

Christians and Other Monotheists have, in the Past, been Enemies of Pagan Seers because Pagan Religions are Feminine rather than Masculine, Ecstatic rather than Ascetic, and Anarkic rather than Fascistic. How Ever, it is Quite Obvious

 Many Christians believe in the Power of Prophesy - so Long as it is Xplained through a Christian Lens! Christian Oracles, unDoutably, believe their Powers come from the Bright God above. So do mine. But they also come, just as Well and just as Happily, from the Darkness below. I get so Many Visions because of my Willingness to push my Moral and Philosophical Boundaries into the Realms of "Sinful" Activities, Such as Intoxication and Libidinous Sx. Christian Rigidity is what Happens when the Light forgets the Value of the Dark. Light, unbalanced by Darkness becomes Puritanical, just as Darkness unbalanced Light becomes Evil.

Not Only do we need to let Loose of MonoTheistic Rigidity, we need to accept that the Secular Scientific Reality Model does not account for Much of the Magick of Every Day Life - rather, it reduces Events to Mechanical and Chemical Interactions that are Really Only at the Surface of Reality, which is like xplaining how a Person works by showing their Musculature, their Nerves, and their Neurons, forgetting Entirely about their Personality, their Self, their Soul. Many of the Realities behind the Visionary Xperience, how Ever, are xplained by Quantum Mechanics.

We Oracles deserve Respect, and we have / had it in Many Cultures.

It is Time to bring this Art to the TechnoWorld to be re accepted within the Anarkistic FreeDom of the OnLine Era.

Making it known.

Andrea

Comments left on a Previous inCarnation of this Essay

Anonymous Sep 17, 2011 11:14 AM

Wow. WOW. You need to STOP doing drugs and get your smart head screwed back on properly. You are being very duped right now by the people you're surrounding yourself with. GET OFF THE DRUGS, they are having a very noticeable effect on your mind.

-Been There, Done It

Anonymous Sep 18, 2011 07:15 PM

this 'shaman' is not a shaman, he is a dirty liar and thief who preys on very young woman and convinces them to do drugs and sleep with him. get away from him. save yourself. i am serious. tap into the rational part of your mind, go to rehab, and get the fuck away from his crazy talk. he has the power to persuade the gullible, and capitalizes on it when he can.

Can Any One tell me what's Wrong with this Person's Interpretation of my Essay?

Andrea