The state of things

I existed, he blocked me out
I assumed I did not exist
If I did not exist, nothing I said mattered
I pretended he did not exist
I invented him
I could make him do what I wanted
If he did not exist, nothing I said mattered
I had a great time with it
But he did exist and everything I said mattered
And I did exist and everything I said mattered
I do not know how it will end
The anticipation!

Bret Easton Ellis

Bret Easton Ellis is rich but he talks about his wealth with enough detachment to make it not fantasy but a reflection of a true state in America

I’ve gone on a solitary mission of the mind
I have a beer
I am Canadian and I am from the North
I am more Bukowski than Bret
I am watching people go by the big window at the bar
My knees are hot from the sun
The world shows its opulence to me
And then it leaves